first time for everything

Like my real first, I figure this should be brief, slightly painful, and more than a tad embarrassing. Like my first, I will fake my way through it. Later I will secretly wonder what all the fuss was about. Like my first, I will tell only my closest friends. And like my first, I will forever be changed. I will feel a smug satisfaction that I have taken one step closer towards the person I am supposed to be, and I will feel a pang of guilt for having taken one step further from the person I have always known. We all have to have a first time. Was it good for you?